The Meaning Behind This Blog Title

I have so many thoughts whirling around in my mind tonight and eventually, I would like to record all of them.  For now though, I feel as though I should explain the meaning behind the title I chose for this blog: The End of Me.  I have been meditating on 2 Corinthians 5:17 which states "Therefore, if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new."  Now, this is a verse I have known forever and heard too many times to count but in the past couple months, God has been working on me in a big way.  More and more I hear Him telling me to let go.....simply let go.  I am such a type A personality and this is an area I struggle with.  I have a hard time letting go.  I want to be in control and I tend to want things done "my way".  Yes, there have been many times that I say I am just going to let God handle it but when it all boils down, I do not really give it all over to Him like I should.  I tend to hang on, even if I am just clinging to it by a thread, I am not fully surrendering to God.  This includes my life.  I say I have given my life to God.  I was saved as a child and most of my life I have had some sort of relationship with Him.  However, the key words there are "some sort".  I have never fully, 100% turned my life over to him.  There has always been something I have been holding back, afraid to totally surrender.  Even now, it is scary.  I want the abundant life God has planned for me but that requires me to hand over my old life, my whole being, everything that I am, everything that I have......I have to lay it down at the foot of Christ and allow Him to live through me completely.  This is where I am.  This is the beginning of my new life, a life fully surrendered to Christ.  This is the end of me.................