My Heart's Cry

I am finding more as I grow in my walk with Christ that the true desire of my heart is to be within His will.  There is just such a peace about being near to my Lord and living the life He has for me.  I am trying hard to work on letting God be in control of my life......every little part of it.  In our lady's Bible study today we were discussing emotions and circumstances and how as women, we tend to let these things control us.  It doesn't have to be this way.  Is it easy to accept or understand that our emotions and circumstances do not control us.....absolutely not.  In our human-ness (is that a word?) we want to make excuses for how we act, think, react and it is so easy to say....if only.....or it's that time of the month.....or it isn't my fault.  It is so easy to make excuses.  In reality, we need to simply acknowledge that God has given us everything we need to deal with whatever emotions or circumstance we find ourselves in if we will just allow Him to have the control.  One of the scriptures we talked about was Philippians 4: 8-9.  It tell us to think about thinks that are good, noble, pure and true.  As I thought about a recent day when I was feeling particularly angry and frustrated I realized the importance of this scripture.  The reason I was feeling that way was because I was not thinking and dwelling on the pleasant, good things.  I was allowing myself to dwell on negative thoughts and feelings which caused the anger to grow.  My prayer is that God continues to remind me when I forget to let go of the negative and look to things that are pleasing and glorifying to Him.  I want my life to be consumed with living for my Lord.  I want my life to shine with God's grace and love for everyone to see.  I want nothing more than to be in God's will and doing the things He wants me to be doing.  I know without a doubt that God is working on my heart.  I have not figured out yet what exactly He is doing, and maybe I won't figure that out for a long time to come.  The one thing I do know is that I want to be close to Him so that when He is ready to reveal His plan to me, I am right there so I can hear!  For some reason tonight my eyes have been opened tonight to some of the ways Satan is attacking and trying to steal the joy in my life, especially in my marriage.  I am fighting his tactics with all that I have...he will not win this battle as the Lord is on my side!!  How exciting is that?  God is on my side and He is fighting for me!!  He has already won the battle and any battles to come and He is on MY SIDE!!  Praise God for his grace which is sufficient for me.